“I wish I didn’t know about societal and existential problems of humanity. I was happier when I didn’t. I hate myself now everyday, I wish I had the courage to stop my suffering.”
At its core it usually is, but they often push it outward. My experience with a conservative religion was mostly just self hatred at not being good enough too honestly, but my personality was never much on the conservative axis. Or rather, when I did stuff on that level I never felt good about them.
That is, anger, outrage, paranoia, and ignorance are their comfort zone. It’s what they know. And in my little corner of the world, the more vociferously conservative they are, the less self-aware they are about it.
It’s really pervasive in ways I never truly realized until way too far into adulthood when I was working to get that shit out of my own head.
I wish I was still dumb enough to be conservative. I was happier than. I hate myself now everyday I wish I had the courage to kill myself
Wtf?
“I wish I didn’t know about societal and existential problems of humanity. I was happier when I didn’t. I hate myself now everyday, I wish I had the courage to stop my suffering.”
I was. I was still angry all the time, but at least it was not at myself
Conservatives live in an endless cycle of outrage and fear, the fuck you talking about happy
But it’s not at themselves
At its core it usually is, but they often push it outward. My experience with a conservative religion was mostly just self hatred at not being good enough too honestly, but my personality was never much on the conservative axis. Or rather, when I did stuff on that level I never felt good about them.
Maybe comfortable is the better word.
That is, anger, outrage, paranoia, and ignorance are their comfort zone. It’s what they know. And in my little corner of the world, the more vociferously conservative they are, the less self-aware they are about it.
It’s really pervasive in ways I never truly realized until way too far into adulthood when I was working to get that shit out of my own head.
Sounds like a really strong need for therapy.
In the meantime would you be willing to elaborate on whats making you depressed?