They laid off almost everyone at my old job on a few Monday’s back. I was already trying to get off pot and booze because they were frankly killing me. I had started Wellbutrin but it was still the 2 week period where that stuff kicks in. When I got told that I was going to be let go I had a really bad mental breakdown. I have PTSD from having an utter shit childhood and really bad episodic MDD. I could not focus and was crying in public which has not happened in a while. I also might have been hearing voices but they are not there anymore. I ended up in a partial hospitalization program under recommendation of my therapist and while it sounded scary it has turned my life around in only 3 days of going.

Next step is they are going to be putting me on Abilify to even out the spikes I have been having. While the Wellbutrin is handling some of my ADHD I want to see if I can change it to 300mg to see if it squashes it along with my MDD episodes that its handling now. The psychologist says I should not be scared of the Abilify even tho I kind of am. She says it will even out the spikes and dips I have been having. Those are what are causing me to cry. I read on the internet too it should be helpful with my autism spectrum issues.

I have been white knuckling it alone for so long that seeing some light on the horizon makes me want to cry with joy. I just hope some of the bridges I have burned can be built back up again because I have left a trail of fire behind me. I am really hoping to figure out this whole vegan thing that I have been so hardcore in hating now that I am not consumed by thoughts of death.

Lastly, I dont know if any of you have had some experiences with Abilifiy if you do I would like to hear about them bad or good. Thank you for reading this my friends, and if you think there is no hope out there remember that other humans have beat what you have and you dont have to go at it alone.

  • damnatum_seditiosus [any]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    6 months ago

    I have a very small dose of Abilify that I take along Bupropion to “boost” the effect of the later and so far so good. I feel more energetic with it where I was more or less catatonic before and the effect was quick to act.

    I hope you don’t lose that light on the horizon!

    heart-sickle

    • ReadFanon [any, any]@hexbear.netEnglish
      3·
      6 months ago

      If we’re talking about legit catatonia or if you are uncertain about the symptoms of catatonia (there’s a lot of misconceptions around about it) then I’d really strongly urge you to try a lorazepam challenge or, if benzos are restricted closely in your country or you aren’t keen on benzos for the obvious reasons, then zolpidem or zopiclone is a good alternative for this purpose.

      With regards to longer-term catatonia prevention, I would recommend NMDA antagonists but with a caution not to use them to stave off catatonic episodes only to push through under the conditions that are causing or aggravating your catatonia because that will be counterproductive and you risk causing things to get worse for yourself. But this must be weighed against the risks of being stuck in catatonia and the effects of this condition too - catatonia thar goes unmanaged is extremely troublesome.