Yeah, I get how you feel. Finding somebody who can vibe with you is a challenging part of our identity. Though I also feel some of the commenters here have great points all around already.

You obviously can’t deny homoromantic feelings are there, which does in fact make you a lesbian. If that is how you feel the label best describes you. There isn’t anything wrong with that. Sometimes it takes us multiple affirmations before we really find a connection to how we understand ourselves. Whilst we try to come up with words and labels that help us define or describe ourselves they don’t always fit. Vocabulary is limited and we are more complex than words. There isn’t anything wrong with that either.

Don’t always get hung up on the idea that you can’t find a label that fits. As long as you know who you are, where your attraction is in terms of Sexual/Romantic/Platonic etc… Then take simple steps to find yourself.

Sometimes where we live it limits us, I know how you feel. Being an Ace in a little town and not having or knowing anyone to vibe with is really difficult. Also being a person with a anxiety the answer isn’t as simple as “go make friends lol” Especially when you are limited to what activities you can do in such a small place.

If you are in a financial position e.g. you are working you could try going to small LGBT events near you this is the perfect time of the year as there will be pride events being organised that you could go to and try making conversation/ meet LGBT people.

Though understandably it is a massive hurdle even for me, it is a small act that could open you up to seeing/meeting people you could vibe with. Sometimes small talk is better than nothing and could make you feel less lonely.

Even though it doesn’t cure how you’re feeling in this moment, the act of doing it could be something to challenge yourself to and by doing it whether you tell yourself it is or not. Is progress. Taking small steps might feel like nothing but they are attainable and they at least get you somewhere.