I never got into it and I feel like I’m missing a huge social part of my life. I’ve tried alcohol and it just tastes bad. Maybe if I had enough to get inebriated I’d feel different, but so far nothing about the experience of drinking has been good. Also I grew up around Baptists who don’t have drinking in the culture, so maybe that’s part of it? My parents never had alcohol in the house and there was never beer/wine at family gatherings. I never even saw a full glass of beer in person until I was like 23.
Bars are too loud and there’s too much expectation to drink, parties have the same problem, drinking at home alone sounds sad. I go to concerts and I’m the only person without a huge glass of beer. People hand me drinks and I’m like “nah” and they get mega confused.
What do I do
Is this the opposite of a problem?
I really liked drinking, but mostly because it allowed me to mask my autism and be social, until the alcohol induced anxiety set in, and it became a way of just staving off even more anxiety than I’d had before I started drinking. This led me pretty far down the road of alcoholism, and it took years and serious consequences for me to shake it, and then another 5 years to even get back to where I was before I started drinking, and to this day I still feel like my development is behind many others because of how long I spent drinking instead of growing.
Don’t feel bad about not liking to drink, you’re only saving yourself trouble later on. I know some people can drink “healthily”, but honestly, I don’t think there is healthy drinking. No one I’ve ever met since getting sober is enjoyable to be around when inebriated, and I shudder to think how other sober people saw me when I was in the depths of my shit.