Ah I’m seeing this post after your other comment. Good to see you are actually starting treatment. I hope it can give you the tools to deal with your struggles.

Going to treatment is a hard step for many and you should be proud that you’re taking it. You seem to be willing to change, that’s important. But remember: it’s a marathon you’re doing now, not a sprint. It’s not going to magically get better after 1 or 2 sessions and it will require work. But as long as you are able to open up and follow through, you will get out of it a better person, I promise.

And for something inspirational: I myself have dealt with years of drug and alcohol abuse. I even dealt hard drugs to finance my lifestyle of partying and destroying myself. I was on a path to be a lifelong criminal and to destroy myself with drugs. Many times did it seem hopeless when I looked at the future. And many times did I try to end my life because of it. I’ve hit absolute rock bottom and I’ve stayed there for a long long time.

But I managed to turn it around. By myself, with help from my friends and family and, importantly, with therapy. It was a hard road to where I am now, with some dangers of falling back, but I made it. And nothing will knock me back down now.

If I could do it, you sure can. We’re here for you.