This is the reason minority identities are unsustainable. My personal philosophy is to stick to the specific things I know and avoid as much as possible wearing hats and trying to label my beliefs and also just generally resisting the temptation to make large-scale generalizations.

Even in this post you didn’t really say anything you specifically believed in. You “studied politics and Marxism-Leninism” but what does that mean? Those are both massive nets. What exactly stuck out to you? What were the most important stories, facts, and individual lessons you learned during that time? Was it the Iran-Contra scandal, learning about the 1917 revolution, reading about how witchhunts in sixteenth century Europe were used to control women’s labor, or realizing that the capitalist mode of industrialized agriculture is ecologically exploitative and unsustainable?

Now that you’ve got the “building blocks” remind yourself what are the lessons you learned form that. What is the massacre of banana workers by the United Fruit Company in 1928 an example of? What is the bigger picture it ties back to?

Lessons are learned but they are also forgotten. You have to constantly re-learn lessons when you live in a society that is spending constant effort to teach you opposing lessons. So you have to revisit the things that matter to you and reanalyze them and relearn them

That being said, I think the only sustainable way to do this is by living in a community of other people with these same goals and values. Find your peeps