The world presents itself as an overwhelmingly grim place.
Animals endure unspeakable forms of abuse, and tragically, so do human beings.
In the midst of hunger, death, and immense suffering, there are instances where people engage in heated arguments about trivial matters like movies, expending energy that could be directed towards alleviating the dire situations faced by many. I mean, they’re actually arguing about a black actress playing a mermaid, for goodness’ sake!
Pain seems to permeate every corner, with its unrelenting presence.
Our planet is undergoing distressing turmoil, manifesting in escalating temperatures and rampant wildfires.
While I persistently strive to maintain a hopeful outlook and contribute positively, having made donations to various charities and working to raise awareness, I can’t help but wonder why collective empathy and action often fall short of what’s truly needed.
I find myself grappling with uncertainty and confusion.
I am fortunate to have access to therapy, and perhaps an SSRI might offer some solace. It appears that I may need to rely on medication to navigate this existence while safeguarding my mental well-being.
While reading your post I was reminded of myself while I was in really bad depression that lasted 10-15 years on and of, and wanted to suggest you therapy.
I was pleasantly surprised when you mentioned you are already at it.
It helped me immensely, I am happy and life is good now. It took time, first few years until finding good type of therapy and therapist (psychoanalysis was the right one for me, everything else was just not deep enough) and than five years until I got well enough and five more years to heal completely.
Before that I was walking around seeing people laughing and wondering “how can they laugh when world is such a shitty place???”
I wish you good luck and good journey while you get to know and love yourself. You will see there are nice things too, and we humans are wild animals. That’s part we fight to repress.
Froyd wrote: “Guilt and the neurotic repression of instinct are simply the price we pay in order to live together harmoniously in families and communities.”
It is not easy being nice, it is not our nature. Additionally we are full of trauma that needs healing.