lilypad [she/her]

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Cake day: October 26th, 2023

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  • I had a similar thing around my facial hair before i began transition. I hated it, but i also loved it because it hid my face. I had a big dysphoria beard, and shaved it a couple times, but every time i just let it grow back because what was underneath was so alien and weird and bad. Do you think youd like your face more if it were more feminine? Like dont try to focus on specific parts of your face, maybe dont even look in the mirror.

    I think focusing on specific things can be a bit of a trap, both in that one can develop dismorphia, and in that ones transition might not change those things.

    hrt risks (also just my opinions and not comprehensive and are specific to me and my risk assessment i did before starting transition)

    Trying hrt is low risk in some ways, but that doesnt mean no risk. One should be ok with the risks before starting. The big one is that one may become sterile depending on how long one is on hrt. The others include genital atrophy and breast growth, but with genital atrophy it can be combatted to a certain degree by maintaining bloodflow for ~10 minutes every few days, and with breast growth one can always get a mastectomy (its probably easier to get if the doctors think their patient is a cis man, cause gender affirming care for cis people is common and simple to get comparatively)





  • I think the other direction could work as well if we’re only concerned with having documentation in both print and web formats; a brief search revealed latex2html, which might be better at handling the contents of the manual depending on how “fancy” it is (complicated things like equations and diagrams are converted to images for the html output). Ill take a closer look at it to see how it would do with themeing and maintaining a colour scheme, but I would imagine some css would be all thats needed.

    Im not terribly familiar with ReStructuredText, but it seems like a fairly standard markup language? (Im partial to latex myself, but thats probably just because Im used to it).

    When it comes to EPUBs, Im not terribly familiar. My recollection is that they modify the structure of a page to fit whatever the device screen size is. This can be quite useful for straight prose, but for a technical manual might have some drawbacks, since theres likely to be diagrams, schematics, etc. Im mostly thinking out loud here, I havent looked at what goes into making an EPUB.

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  • Its really late for me and its been a very busy day (i finally have housing, in the nick of time, im not gonna be homeless, im so relieved 😭🤗) so i will come back to this tomorrow, but I just want to say that I actually really like that colour palette! I really agree with using the colour scheme to communicate that this is for all skin tones and hair colours.

    Ill try to see take a look at sourcehut pages and ways of publishing to both web and print that are (relatively) easy as I have time in the coming days :)

    As always, you rock! Im really impressed by how quickly everything has moved for this project; youre incredibly productive!


  • Har ikkje sett nok anime for å kjenne mange av disse bortsett fra de med hovedkarakterens navn i tittelen. Altså, Komis kommunikasjonsvansker må jo være Komi cant communicate, ikke sant? Har ikkje sett serien en gang men så nok reklamer da den først ble utgitt.

    Må si at lutesøster skremmer meg… Lutefisk e faen mæ nok, vi treng ikkje lutesøster! Og lutefisk er nesten bare en måte å spise bacon på, men hva ville man spist med lutesøster? (Jeg antar at denne er himouto umaru chan? En til som jeg ikke har sett men har bare hørt om)

    Men jeg må si, det viktigste med norske dubbinga er jo dialektene. Tenk hvor fantastisk han Sid var i istid, dialekten passa han perfekt. Da kommer spørsmålet: velg en anime. hvordan ville du tilpassa karakterene mtp dialektene?




  • Sorry for writing copious amounts of text and treating this kinda like a journal, i know im pretty self centered right now, sorry.

    Anyway

    I went on a really nice date to some gardens with this wonderful woman this past weekend.

    It was magical and felt so perfect. Shes also trans and idk if its that or just her but like she gets me in a way that I doubt cis people ever could. We had hooked up a couple times before this, and it was really nice to be in a more romantic/nonsexual setting with her. Gosh i feel intoxicated when Im with her, like theres gotta be something wrong with me right? She makes me feel such wonderful things, shes smart and passionate and strong and really fucking attractive and shes pursuing me of all people, i just feel so lucky. Idk where its going, if it’ll last a month, a year, who knows, but im here for it.

    Its also shone a light on my insecurities and fear of abandonment, and given me a really fucking good reason to get those managed. I mean, theyre mostly managed, kinda, and partially managed on a bad day, but still i want to have them completely managed. Idk, she just makes me want to be the best version of myself.

    I guess thats all to say: yall, im falling hard for this woman and its at a time when I dont have the bandwidth for a serious relationship. I guess happiness comes when you least expect it? Im taking her to the movies this friday, and thinking to cook up a desert themed for the movie (but its a ton of work and im kind of dying right now, housing instability and all that (side note fuck landlords, housing should be a basic human right))

    I just want to snuggle up with her forever, lay on her couch wrapped in each other, talking about nothing and everything. And kiss her, like a lot.




    On the less wonderous side of things, ive been realizing the extent of my mothers codependency/fucked-up-edness and it shifted how I view her and made my discomfort relating to her more understandable. Im tired of being responsible for her emotional state, of being there for her in situations where I shouldnt have to be. For example, shes set a hard boundary about me leaving her house after 3 months, which is fine, but when I express anxiety around my housing instability and frustration with not being able to find a place to rent, she gets very upset and distraught that Im facing homelessness, and then I have to take care of her and soothe her and take care of her emotions when she is the one contributing to/forcing that situation in the first place! You cant tell your daughter to get out of your house and then turn around and be distraught by your daughter not having a place to live!? Make it make sense, please.

    Ive got a great monster of the week campaign going on that im continuously excited for, its really fun :) plus everyone is trans and its great.

    Anyway, life is life, and life is wonderful and terrible.


  • I haven’t looked into it at all, but I know sourcehut has a pages feature that lets you deploy a website hosted by them. I havent looked into it and it might not be suitable, but since youre already using sourcehut to host the repos it might be worth checking out.

    I must admit Im a sucker for basic PDFs for A4 paper when it comes to assembly guides and manuals. I love having something printed that I can bind and leaf through. Perhaps considering a documentation format that can be published to multiple formats would be nice? I have used org mode to publish to both web and pdf (via latex) before, and the syntax tends to be unobtrusive enough that people who arent familiar with it can understand it with relative ease, but theres certainly other formats that would work (maybe texi? Though ive mostly used that for generating info manuals, i know theres texi to pdf and texi to html processors, though i dont know how featurful they are)

    As always, youre doing amazing work and its super exciting to see this all coming together! meow-bounce


  • Im so glad this is coming along so well! And im so happy you liked the sphynx name! swole-chonk

    Ive been checking out each of these posts and love seeing them, i just havent been commenting cause lifes been busy (week from homelessness and kinda sorta seeing someone new who ive fallen head over heels for), but ill just say it again: this is seriously game changing!

    Ill ask some of my design friends if theyre interested in making a logo, and maybe someone will make something for the project!

    And as always, you fucking rock! I dont have much to contribute right now, so im just cheering you on from the sidelines! Youre amazing and wonderful and making my dreams of being hair-free come within reach! cat-trans bridget-vibe




  • First and foremost, you are now my favorite human ever. I was just looking at electro costs today for the first time and crying cause Im unemployed and dont think ill ever be able to afford it. This would be such a game changer, it would literally change my life and access to care. You are a beautiful person for doing this meow-hug

    Ok gushing out of the way, I would love to contribute and help make this a reality, but dont really know how. I can write code (most relevant to this project, ive done a toy OS and bootloader in C), and am familiar with a handful of licenses. Ive also done basic home electronics (winding my own pickups, building and programming a mechanical keyboard, rewiring guitars, etc). Im also pretty ok at writing documentation and could do some latex magic to produce nice looking user and service manuals, as well as build instructions. But for the time being, I want to cheer you on!!! This project has made my day so much better just from the prospect of it existing, thank you stalin-heart

    As far as the name goes, im unsure. But the mascot should be a hairless creature, like the sphynx cat or naked mole rat.

    Thank you so much for beginning this project, it has serious impact and just reading this made my day far better and less distressing. You are a wonderful person!

    cat-trans

    Editing to add that perhaps you could consider something like sourcehut as a forge provider instead of github? With sourcehut anyone with an email address could contribute, and you could always mirror to github for visibility if you wanted.