comrade_rain [she/her]

I highly suggest this whole series and the following one. But exercise six helps with restlessness/worry as well as sloth/torpor.

https://www.buddhistinquiry.org/resources/satipatthana-audio/

Suggestion is to do exercise six so you know where it’s going. Then do the whole series, practicing with one every day for a week.

The series after is this one.

https://www.buddhistinquiry.org/resources/breathing-audio/

Both are based on the Buddha’s own practice and teachings. And the meditation instructor is a well respected scholar of early Buddhism.

The short answer is, when sleepy or dull recall that you’re going to die on the in breath. Let go on the out. If restlessness is present, pay more attention to the out breath.

deleted by creator

I quit dreaming at some point last year. Suppressing nightmares I think.

I started dreaming again recently. And had a very vivid one night before last that was pleasant.

Had an argument with my gf last night, we worked everything out but apparently I had some lingering emotions.

Had a nightmare last night that a very manipulative exgf was hanging out with my current gf. I think some of it’s brainworms and doubts. As that was a lot of the narrative manipulative ex was pushing about me.

I need to find a gender therapist. I like my current one but she’s cis and treating early transition people isn’t her wheelhouse.

Unfit is the first?? Of the second.

Must be a missing line at the bottom.

Thanks!

My gf used to wax herself and has offered to teach me. So I’ll likely go that route.

Did you have nipple hair before? It’s about the only place on my chest where I have much body hair.

Yeah I don’t think it’s really a good idea. Better to find some supportive friends instead and let that relationship go in my opinion.

I’ve made friends at support groups by showing up early to meetings and hanging out after meetings. If there’s people that you vibe with just ask them if they want to grab some coffee or something sometime.

Outside of that. Here we have a trans church. I’m not a church-going person but they do a lot of community building and left organizing. So I make friends by attending events that the church hosts.

My partner also had a trans woman join a non-profit that she is on the board of. And I made friends with her and have gone clothes shopping with her as well as hung out a few times.

I think generally trans people are happy to make friends with other trans people. And we have similar lived experiences that tend to be pretty rare. So making friends can be easy once we get over the awkwardness.

I don’t have any money. But I do have a good credit rating!

Thanks I will probably go for it.

That’s some love the sinner hate the sin bullshit. And I would be tempted to start using she her pronouns and a feminine name for them. If they don’t respect you don’t respect them.

Honestly though see if you can find trans community in your area. It can feel awkward being new to those spaces, but I find a lot of commonality with other trans people.

Second laser session on my face this morning. Burning hair is dysphoria leaving the body!

Also a question. I don’t have a lot of body hair to begin with. Will the hormones pretty much wipe out my nipple and stomach hair? The laser clinic is running a deal right now and I can get both of those done for 35 bucks a month (for like three years of payments).

Considering that’s like two packs of cigarettes and I’m trying to quit smoking anyway, I’m seriously considering it. But if the estrogen is going to take care of it likely then I figure I should save my money.

Curious though what have other people’s experiences been with body hair?

Yay boobies!

Saved!

Thanks.

The middle was a bit slow for me but I couldn’t put it down once I hit the second part.

The whatevers got a bit old but otherwise I loved the writing style.

It was good enough I don’t want to lend out my copy until I read it again. Which is rare for me.

I also learned a lot about myself from reading it. And picked up a few tips on shaving and passing (using eye makeup to draw attention away from facial hair and my Adam’s apple).

Movies and fiction would be good. I’m drowning in theory at the moment with Butler’s stuff.

Lol well I guess I finished Nevada and Orange book!

Saved thanks!

Thanks. I’ll try a deeper angle.

I switched sites from my stomach to my thighs last time and that was a bit better.

I don’t have a lot of body fat so finding good spots is still a work in progress.