Wendy_Pleakley [he/him, they/them]

Why is androgyny so attractive tho 🧐

I struggle with this sort of thing myself. It’s like I’ll see someone and find them so instantly attractive that I lock up and don’t know how to proceed socially. I usually end up feeling guilty, like I’m staring too much. I felt like it was a male gaze thing for the longest time.

For me some of it is envy vs. attraction, am I into them or do I want to look like them? I’m not always sure, and it could be both or neither. I’m attracted to guys, but women catch my eye more.

I’ve lost my own point! In any case, whoever experiences this, I sympathize, because I am still trying to understand my own tendencies to be awkward around the beautiful people

“Greetings, fellow Do-Gooder!”

I mean, not with this.

I can ask someone to move their car if it’s blocking me in. I can ask someone how they are. I can ask someone if something they said is really true.

But, like, what I need from other people? I don’t know what I need from other people. People aren’t consistent, so how does one depend on them? How can you establish needs when the people you need ghost you or misunderstand you?

I’m not trying to defend my thoughts, I’m trying to understand why I keep hitting dead ends. Idk I know I’m a mess

She’s not a girl

who misses much

dudududududooo

oh yeah

She wants encouragement to speak up and ask questions and that’s not something we’re prepared to do

yeah idk anymore lol

feeling the darkness or whatever

*I try to see the glass as half full,

But I’d probably just drink that too~!*

Will Wood’s discography doing the work of multiple therapists during my commute

It does suck.

If I knew what to ask, if I knew where to start, I’d have done that. I’m not a Question Wizard.

I get the impression that most people don’t get caught in moral quandaries that cause them to retreat from the world in a state of emotional overwhelm

But I do get caught in this assumption that if I explain myself perfectly then it’ll click and somebody will see me as I truly am

I also don’t get how people ask questions without being scared

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I don’t understand why I am sweating through every piece of clothing just enough to leave ugly stains. We simply do not have the science to answer such a thing.

It’s very annoying though. Nobody else looks sweaty 😐

Went to my high school 10 year after a lot of deliberation. It ended up being okay, I talked to people for a few hours!I wasn’t super close with my high school friends, but it is nice to get together.

Once every 10 years is fine, though, and I don’t feel obligated to show up to 20.

Remembered that my high school reunion is tomorrow night. I’m trying to decide if I want to go, and if I want to say fuck it and try and present in a more feminine way.

I haven’t talked to any of my high school friends in years, we sorta went our separate ways. I’m not looking to rekindle those friendships, but it could be a confidence boost to see old friends.

I am quite sleepy 🥱

Thinking about shaving my arms. I wonder if they’d be smooth 🫢

Listen, in this house we trust Snoopy. We believe in Snoopy

But for real, how are you supposed to do stuff when everything causes you to freak out and need somebody? I’ve gone so long without someone to confide in that the need washes over me instantly.

People always say I’m hard to help, that I don’t accept help. But now that I’m in complete atrophy, I can’t move forward in my life, and the doors are wide open, people are even less willing to help. I thought people would rise to an opportunity to answer the call of a friend in need but truly idk anymore

Or maybe everyone but me has the answer. It seems like it many days

I get so overwhelmed.

I don’t know if I believe that people can keep themselves organized. It genuinely seems impossible without a second person aware to be aware of me and cognizant of my issues and habits.

Like, every time a situation happens I just have to fucking figure it out. I don’t have that best friend who will listen no matter what and always knows what to say.

Tbh I kind of assume that everyone else does have someone, and I missed the Friend Deadline so that’s why nobody chooses me

For real. You’re literally supposed to pretend you don’t have problems. Every time someone has said, “you can always talk to me”, it’s like, but you haven’t been here. Talk to me so I know I can talk to you.