you’re reminding me i should catch up on blowback, i’m 2 seasons behind (the korea one was the last one i listened to)

drank in excess alone last night and shut off two separate spooky movies halfway through cuz i was enjoying them so little. loser evening for Soylent

ending jenny death with death grips 2.0 instead of On GP is a world class L. sino-soviet split levels.

thought about picking it up for Aki but fighting games are such a time sink…

when i was acclimating to the apps after a decade+ not using them at all, i got in my feelings about a lack of success a lot (and posted incessantly about it here). but most matches fizzle and it’s not personal, and even if she felt like it was personal on her end somehow (i.e. got a vague ick from a reply of yours), this match doesn’t know you at all. you’re a few paragraphs and a curated selection of photos. it really doesn’t reflect on you or your desirability at all at all at all.

it sucks, but the way i learned to function and find some success on the apps was to A) learn to never get attached to a match who i haven’t met in person yet and B) stop overthinking my approach and be myself/go with the flow more.

EDIT: lol just saw your update. see, sometimes it works out! i also had to learn to not read into periods of silence, sometimes its a lack of interest but sometimes there are other explanations. my mini-relationship off hinge started from her taking days between responses.

after careful deliberation orange monster > white monster

idk they probably would be too different but i just think it’s kinda cute

do you think harry and kim could fall in love if the former got his shit together and accepted his bisexuality?

yeesh that sounds super upsetting about #2, sounds like they need deeper help/support and healing that you don’t necessarily have to shoulder the burden of or be around if it feels unsafe. hope you’re doing alright after a confrontation like that.

i continue to be stunned that you and #1 aren’t already dating lol

Just try to aim for “having a fun night getting drinks” to keep it low pressure.

roger that. i am good at being chill and going with the flow. i am good with uncertainty and letting go of expectations. yeah. those things definitely describe the thing that is me

hehe thank u mane! i’m def not really sure what i want from this - a weekish ago i’d be hoping for romantic reconciliation to be on the table, but it didn’t work out once and it was barely any time ago so i kinda wouldn’t trust that and i really doubt it’s on the table. i really do think it would be lovely to be able to be friends with her if it’s not too confusing and hurtful for one or both of us, we have a great connection and she truly is my favorite new person that i’ve met in a long while.

i do kind of like the idea/fantasy of it growing back into something after a good chunk of friendship time when the timing is better for us - though obviously it would be wrong and unfair to both of us to go into a friendship expecting that, and that “maybe but probably not” isn’t something to put your life on hold for. idk i’m not great with uncertainty or with having flexible expectations but ya boy is trying!!

im slightly short and i mostly really like bein a spritely pretty lil guy, half elf rogue with a heart of gold vibes downsides are mostly concerts (can’t see shit with all the talls crowding around), somewhat hurts my dating prospects w/ women (mostly just cishets tho), and idk if this is in my head but i feel like when i encounter sketchy characters on the street im sliiiiiiiightly more likely to be targeted for weird harassment and shit? idk that last one might be a stretch.

might give it a month for my already sent priority likes to blossom but then…may pay for hinge premium again

officially gonna be grabbing a drink with my former love

omg as a drinker ppl have suggested kratom to me, ive thought about it but i’m scared of the prospect of withdrawals (alcohol withdrawal is a thing too ofc, but ive taken breaks and while the quantities im drinking are unhealthy they dont seem to be enough to cause withdrawal)

ive yet to be ghosted by someone i’ve met in person, but i had a work friend who gave me the silent treatment for 8 months after a fling that ended badly, that’s as close to ghosting as they could get away with considering we spent most of our waking hours around each other. and yeah that left scars for sure, i’ve been paranoid that my most recent ex love interest was ghosting me a few times even though she’s never been anything but kind and loving and accountable to me.

what happened in your case if you don’t mind my asking?

oh fuck yeah, thank u!

nothin poetic

if i could tell my younger self one thing it would be to start taking imodium sooner you slimy assed little dolt