I’m constantly drinking before or/and after work. I don’t usually drink when I don’t have to work. I don’t see how living this life and working a job like this for the rest of my working life makes sense. I don’t see how living this life could be worth it. I already see a psychiatrist, the meds make me functional but I still don’t see life as being worth it. I tend to read on Buddhism as a way to escape the suffering that is life. Do any of you relate?