I’ve been having a dought. It’s a small nagging one but it’s there.

I’ve been working a lot with my therapist on self hate issues, but I can acknowledge them.

I realized I can never really be in any kind of physical relationship with somone because of this. I’m repulsed by myself and perhaps my asexuality is just a result of that.

I wonder if I am so repulsed by myself that the idea of me being with anyone is rejected because of the “me” part and not how I feel towards others. Where some may think “I want to kiss that person” I can’t bare the thought if subjecting somone to me in that way. And therefore the thought is gross.

Does anyone else deal with this? Any advice?

  • EmoBean@lemmy.worldEnglish
    12·
    1 year ago

    an actual asexuality

    What is that supposed to mean? I know, but I want to hear you say it.

    • somnuz@lemm.eeEnglish
      31·
      1 year ago

      Nah, sorry, I am not playing these games online. There, there and there you go.

      It is not the best approach to communication by implying someones twisted / misunderstood intentions by just taking a few words out of context to force a not existing point.

      Then it becomes a drama minefield.