Growing up, I considered myself a relatively hard worker and to be fair, it’s brought me to a decent place now. With opportunities/good luck and work, I live in a nice place, have a good job, savings, etc. But for whatever reason, I’ve slowly lost my edge over the last year or two. During work, I find myself being less productive/procrastinating, and I spend my free time watching TV or eating junk.

I know I can do better, but I’ve lost confidence over time. I compare myself to my others and feel lazy (because I am or at least could be better, etc.)

I have three major areas in my life at this moment:

1. Work - things have been slow tbh, there’s a big project coming but rather than dedicating the extra time to the other two things, I’m wasting time and often procrastinating minor work tasks where I have to do them on the weekend.

2. Career Pivot - this has been difficult because I’m building my resume to move into a new field. I’m chipping away a bit at a time, but certainly could be spending more time on this. I’m doing 30 min - 1 hour a day, whereas in reality I have 3 - 4 hours a day open. This is always on the back of my mind since I’m procrastinating the work, and I think has become a source of stress/makes it difficult to relax.

3. Exercise and Health - the challenge has been consistency. I am exercising more consistently, I will skip maybe 1 or 2 days a week, but will get some movement in on the other days. Diet has been the challenge. I’m eating less than before, but not enough to lose weight… probably 1500 calories most days, but 2-3 days a week of 2400 - 2800 calories.

I criticize myself for being lazy but don’t seem to make changes, at least at the pace that I want / could be. It has left me with the a feeling or sense that I don’t have control over my actions.