I think both those things are normal.

It’s super common to kind of go back and forth in terms of what gender you look at/think about. It happens to me, and to many other people I have talked to. Sometimes this gets called the “bi-cycle”, which is funny, but also not a good term because its not actually predictable like a cycle. If you ever end up in a serious relationship with a guy, it might send you to the gay end of things for a while, but you’ll probably still notice women.

You definitely also hear people who talk about being sexually attracted to one gender and romantically interested in another. It’s not weird, and doesn’t mean you’re not bi. But, is it possible that you’re not so romantically attracted to guys because you grew up in a heteronormative society? Like if you only saw straight couples when you were young you might subconsciously imagine them as the only way be in a romantic relationship. Not saying that’s what’s going on, just a thought.

Either way, good luck with the gay shit!