Seriously, I wanna go begone every time I read some carrer growth opportunity bullshit. It’s either a job or it isn’t.

I really despise anything remotely related to linkedin or whatever kind of creature dwells in that place. Can everyone do this stuff? Like, is this really how everyone gets a job? I can’t deal with all this pretending, everything requires having a linkedin profile, but not only that, you gotta sell yourself somehow. And I don’t even use social media.

Well, I have a bachelor’s degree from a good University, I’m good at what I do, here’s a portfolio. But no, I have to prove I deserve to be selected as a producer of wealth for my potential boss by pretending to be someone else. Can’t we all just be practical about this shit? I have to keep trying to put myself into boxes and trying to fit with a sort of profile that I just can’t and don’t know why.

Am I autistic? Like, do I go get a diagnosis and maybe that will help? Do I go do something on my own? Then I have to figure out what an then sell it, and I’m bad at that. I don’t know what to do and I’m tired of trying. (I was almost crying while writing this paragraph).

Honestly though, I just wanted to rant and this is one of the few places I feel safer in. Thanks for reading my angery rambling

  • WideningGyro [any]@hexbear.net
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    6 days ago

    I was feeling very much like what you describe after I quit my PMC job - which was quietly being taken over by machine translation and chatbot shit. What I did was pivot to childcare, specifically after school stuff. No idea if there is any real infrastructure for that where you live, but for me it’s been pretty rewarding. It’s an active, extremely varied job and when I walk in the door it’s like my personal issues disappear for a while. Kids kind of put things into perspective or something. It can be hard, disorienting and rough sometimes (kids can be little assholes, and realizing all the fucked up shit in their lives that make them do so can be depressing), but it feels meaningful in a way that no office job I’ve ever had has done.

    Wage is shit though, and I’m massively overqualified (have an MA in a completely unrelated field). It is however pretty cool that my most important qualifications in this job are actually things I like to do in my spare time - music, games, sports etc.