Or health, in a sense. Recently I’ve been seriously overworking myself, but the only signs that I can notice early on are mental. Such as being unable to stay on a task or project for more than 10 minutes at a time max, or forgetting how to talk properly and slurring my speech.
And to put in perspective how exhausted my actual body is, I’ve been just straight up collapsing, barely able to walk straight, shaky noodle legs and the such. But I don’t notice any actual physical problem until I literally fall over, and then I’m like “Oh, I should sleep or stop and relax” or something.
Is this a thing anyone else experiences? I was diagnosed with the AuDD combo a while back but I’ve been unmedicated, since being poor in America and all that.
Yeah I have awareness of how my body feels, how much I should eat etc.
(The psych said “close but no ADHD”, never tried for autism because I think I am doing OK enough socially that I don’t qualify but I am near the AuDHD corner of the personality space)
I get a twitching eye. I once had it for weeks until I realized “huh maybe I really am a bit stressed”. I ended up quitting my job (not just because of the eye) and it pretty much stopped.
I wish i could quit my job, that’d let me focus on home life a lot more
I changed from academia to IT and started to actually be happy from there on out.
I tried IT, but computers are so frusturating. Not because I don’t know how to use them, but because proprietary software vendors make the dumbest of decisions when designing their ui. I was actually looking into going into acadamia too lol
IT can be very different depending on the platform and how the work is organised (or not), work from home / office, etc.
Academia is basically universally chaotic, with a high level of freedom, independence and thus personal responsibility. In academia, no one is going to create structure for you, help you focus your energy or jump in to pick up the slack when you inevitably drop a project at 95% done for some new shiny thing.
In companies, it is very possible to find good teams that share the workload and responsibility, where a (neuro)diverse person can contribute with their strengths, while having their weaknesses compensated for by other team members with different skill and personality profiles.
I have worked this way across 3 teams over 5 years. Then again, I am apparently not severe enough for an ADHD diagnosis so YMMV. I definitely have worked with autists though.
P.S. I also hate shitty proprietary software and love open source. Currently working with Linux, Kubernetes, Postgres and Python and tolerating a thin layer of Windows shit through which I have to work. Oracle too, but not for long.
I love linux because if something is broken and I know the bug is simple I can just AUR pull the git version, modify it quickly, and install it as normal
That doesn’t seem healthy. What’s your lifestyle look like? Are you eating right and getting enough sleep and downtime?
I get 1 - 2 meals a day, usually get around 2 - 8 hours of sleep. Basically 0 down time I work in the morning and then have to run errands for the rest of the day. Kinda unhealthy tbh
I’m starting to see the problem. That needs to change today. Ideally it should’ve been yesterday but now is as good as time as ever.
I would start by making sure you are getting 8 hours of sleep and going to bed and getting up at the same time every day.
It’s kinda hard to do that when you’re scheduled on all shifts and have to live paycheck to paycheck. It’s pretty much impossible to make a habit
Well that only works in the very short term. You can’t do that forever.
I can’t pretend to know your situation but I do know you can’t keep pushing yourself forever. Something had to change because that doesn’t work especially for autism.
No. I always bump into things
