Love to see a bunch of shit I’m not qualified for and then a bunch of things that don’t begin to cover my expenses and feel bad about myself and my circumstances and cry and eventually put one application for a custodian position with the county because what the fuck else will I do
I know if I went back to school and finished a degree it would give me a leg up but I just can’t fucking handle the workload of work and school anymore, I feel like such a lazy piece of shit but I just don’t have it in me anymore to keep this shit up
Dealing with a lot of dark thoughts today. Very dark.
From what it looks like out there, “job hunting” often feels more like “job begging” complete with the acts of humiliation, the requirement to roam around and count on the vanishingly scarce generosity of others.
As a formerly homeless person myself, I think I know those dark thoughts because I’ve had my own. Sometimes, only spite kept me going.
I have no meaningful advice that you probably haven’t already heard, except that I believe that every day you’re alive is one day closer to outlasting this.