Go to any post on any “relationship advice” community and you’ll see people drawing up lines, saying you are the villain or your spouse is the villain. “hit the lawyer, facebook up, delete the gym.” Most of the time that isn’t helpful, people ask for relationship help because they want help with their relationship, they don’t want to end it. Oh sure some people are just looking for a reason to get out of an unhealthy relationship, but why are people so quick to vilify? Divisiveness is not going to solve a relationship problem. I feel like I shouldn’t have to start every one of my posts with this kind of disclaimer, but if you look through my post history you’ll find me fighting for my wife again and again. She is not the problem, she is part of the solution. My number one goal is to preserve this relationship, fully transitioning comes second to that.

It’s not just you all, I see this everywhere. I pointed it out to my wife and now she sees it everywhere. I came out at church and now I’m the villain there, how dare I do this to my wife and kids. Why can’t I just “man up” and be what’s expected of me?

And when I come out as Christian to my trans friends, my wife is the villain, how dare she hold you back, how dare she not fully embrace her bi nature, insert bi erasure rhetoric here.

Usually I would follow up this kind of caveat with the problem that needs addressed, but in this case, this IS the problem that needs addressed. Constantly having to fight for each other in opposing circles is exhausting, especially when we are asking for help. I don’t want to hear “oh your priorities are fucked, transition first then worry about your wife”. I’m so tired of asking for help and getting divisiveness. And I don’t know what to do.

The two of us sat down with a counselor the other day and we felt seen, at the same time, for the first time. She understood this struggle. I wish she was taking more clients, hopefully the counselor she recommended will be equally excellent. How do we find or make more of these safe spaces, where we can both exist together, without either of us being the villain?