Edit: Holy shit, thank you! I’d like to leave open my DMs for insight or advice, but the financial need is met. Please don’t post to the thread as not to bump it, to allow others to be seen.

Due to an apparently emerging mental health issue which has caused me to have what appear to be brand-new manic depressive episodes, of which I’ve had two in the past month, I’ve made some poor decisions and my rent is late. I have 275 of the currently 773. I get paid another 340 tomorrow, but I’ll need groceries at a minimum. So ~300 toward rent. If I pay on the last possible day, 8/8, it would be 803.

Not to give the sob story, but I feel details are deserved.

I have a son with a now ex that was born when I was 19. I’m 33 and making 15 an hour. I’m full time with benefits. So 70 a week plus a total of 90 a week for our mandatory insurance. So my take-home is 340 a week. Rent plus utilities is running about 709 a month. There’s not much wiggle room there.

I just took a week off with PTO because I had one of these episodes. I started off manic, then went real dark and drank, etc.

None of this is anyone’s fault but my own. I’m fully aware that everything I’ve described is a direct consequence of one of my choices.

I am offered 25 a visit mental healthcare through my employer. As soon as I get rent paid I’m scheduling. It’s been a few years and clearly it’s not just anxiety I can manage with medical marijuana anymore. I haven’t drank in three days, since I pulled myself out of this last spiral.

There’s a lot of potential in my job. Once I get to a point I can transfer anywhere in my region of the country. I even enjoy what I do. I can make good money, in a year or so.

So I know this is a big ask and I’m also seeking help from family and friends. But we’re all struggling. I see all the posts here and we’re all struggling here, too.

I delayed asking because I hate this. It’s too much. But I got my three day notice today. I thought I had more time. I’m going to call the complex in the morning and see if they will work with me as they did once in the past, but it’s still $10 a day.

This community has gotten me through some rough times and I don’t like asking more and more. Literally helped feed me and keep me off the street. But I need help.

Thank you for listening, comrades. I also welcome any advice or insight. I have friends who are both bipolar and bpd, but I’m not as educated as I should be. I just know something is definitely wrong.

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