I have pretty much given up on being social at all any more because of how much I seem to resist it, even though I WANT to go out and do things and make more friends and be consistent. But it’s just so exhausting, I dissociate when I’m out and about unless I’m drunk, I get super anxious about what to talk about, etc etc. I’ve been going to punk and metal shows for like 20+ years but now I pretty much have resigned myself to the fact that I just am not gonna go anymore because I just disappoint myself again and again after I tell myself I wanna go, but then when it comes down to it I figure out a way to just avoid it. And that makes me sad.
I’m AuDHD, and currently exploring meds. Has anyone noticed an impoved ability to socialize/go out in public when medicated?
This is probably something really important to remember for myself; like I can’t FORCE myself to become more social and have it feel fulfilling. I think as I’ve aged I’ve become more comfortable with just chilling and being cozy at home; don’t really get FOMO at all anymore which is nice…But I still don’t really hang out with people even if it’s 1 on 1 anymore. Putting in the effort of making plans, and then white knuckling through the urge of wanting to cancel and the anxiety of NOT cancelling…it’s all too much to bear lollll. I’m hoping that if I do take meds it can get me to a sweet spot, and it seems lik the consensus here is that it can help at least a little!