It’s strange but listening again to music from about 20 years ago, during a time when I was mostly sad and depressed, and where the musical choices reflected that, gives me a weird sense of nostalgia and longing for that time.
I know it’s not unusual for music to do that, that’s just run of the mill, it’s just odd that, it has me longing for a time and associated mood that, on the whole, I kind of didn’t really enjoy very much. The angsty tracks were what I listened to because I was so bummed out and dissatisfied.
Holy shit, I opened Lemmy with the intention of making a post exactly like this. A relative of mine is graduating soon and is super stressed and saddened by it, and as a result I’ve been listening to music from around the time I graduated lately. remembering how I felt, and despite knowing I was not well, just longing and wishing and beautifying the feeling. I suspect it’s because I just want a chance to redo some fuck ups. I’ve been listening to a LOT of the very sad, dark types of songs from back then once more, and just remembering the feeling so hard it started to unfortunately come back for real.
It’s just like that. Actually it’s an interesting point about wanting to try it again and get it right. I think that’s a layer that probably explains some of the feeling like I miss something that actually wasn’t great to experience.