I just need to vent a little bit and get some feedback from people outside of my friends and family. They love me unconditionally and I know they are never unwilling to listen, but I feel like a broken record lately and really can’t find the motivation or make it better. I’ve really been feeling like an insufferable burden because of my pessimism and cynicism around this topic, so I figure why not unload it on some internet strangers and see what insight I can get from some like-minded people.
I work in big corpo and really really hate it on multiple levels. Everyone around me seems to either be blissfully ignorant or they have found a way to swallow their pride and just exist. I am having a lot of trouble doing that and it makes me feel like an unappreciative shithead. I’m in a good position, in a stable company with a lot of great perks and benefits, but I’m just not happy. I hate the industry, the culture, the work itself, but the people around me have been there for 10+ years, so there must be something I’m missing. Am I wrong for not being able to suck it up and cash my check?
Comparison is the thief of joy.
You were lucky enough to be born in a place, at a time, where the center of your existential dread isn’t your next meal, unreasonable enemies as neighbors, or artillery through your door, walls, and/or roof, but not feeling the state of happiness you perceive others to be in, due to your superficial anecdotal experience of them.
To answer your question, yess that makes you an asshole, the life you live day-to-day is someone’s heaven & someone else’s hellscape, simultaneously.
Every year we make it through the Taurid Meteor Stream as a species, without nuclear war poppin, is a blessing.
That’s a very fair point… I definitely try to keep it in perspective and try not to be ignorant of my privilege; and to be honest with you keeping this is mind definitely helps. Knowing I’m in a very good place compared to most can’t be taken for granted.