Anyone else? It’s not exactly heart-pounding anxiety, and it’s not quite hopeless depression. It’s somewhere in between there, with a heavy focus on fears related to getting older (and weaker and less independent) and a bleak outlook on the world (especially the US) in general.
I look in the mirror and see a face I don’t really recognize, well I do, it’s my mother. So many things inside of my body are changing. My ideas are changing and then to top it off the world is like a dumpster fire everyone keeps driving by hoping someone else will deal with it. So I have moved back and forth between skepticism, nihilism, and existentialism crisis. not to mention I am the slow walker in my family now. Yeah, so I feel the doom. The only positive of the world issues is maybe it’ll wipe out my student loans that I have had since 2000.