That sounds all and well but I have nothing to replace. I have a void to fill. From my standpoint, I went into life with a broken social skillset and a broken reaction to bonding.

I do actually have all these or similar issues you listed. People are very elusive to me and cannot talk to them. If I ever get comfortable I actually let myself go and then that is the issue. Be 25-30 and try socializing people from zero after a longer bput of isolation. You will have the worst fucking time on earth.

Also if I need a companion, I will form my own model.