I describe it as going from “neutral gear” to “superman gear” but it may just be “functioning human gear,” I just know that once I actually start doing something, with or without my meds, I will super focus to the point that Amish work crews were asking if I needed a break. Getting started without meds is damn near impossible.

Fucking sucks that I doubt everything that I know how to do, no matter how much I do it, and when I actually do it, I just beat myself up more because I did a good job, so I shouldn’t have wasted time second guessing myself. Even with the meds.