cross-posted from: https://lemmygrad.ml/post/3190048
I’ve been languishing in my comfort zone. Continuing to do so will have terrible effects for me. To quote Marx, I “[have] become a monster, a huge mass of flesh and fat, and [am] barely capable of walking any more.” Ever since the pandemic started I’ve become a terminally online antisocial weirdo who barely ever leaves my room, let alone the house.
Of course, in addition to the damage this does to my personal life, it also makes me non - potentially even counter - revolutionary. As someone who wants to be a communist instead of just some internet poisoned middle class dilettante, I don’t know how I can be expected to jeopardize the comfort of my parasitic labor aristocratic class position when I can’t even get out of my comfort zone enough to go outside, eat real food, and do even the barest minimum of light exercise.
Consider that you may be depressed. Being depressed is not something that can be hand waved away by anyone. It’s real, and it has a heavy effect on you.
I recommend forcing oneself to go outside at least one point in the day for a week, try it out. Its encouraging to myself to see that I can get going like that. Its small but it really does help. Find audio-books with a podcast or theory book (It gives me that good productive feeling). Play it on your phone while walking. You don’t have to even walk, just sit down outside. I like to take it easy, if its too hard at the beginning my brain will talk myself out of it.
Just some offhand advice, try it or don’t. Different methods work for different people.