Been having a pretty rough time after a psychiatrist suddenly reversed course and refused to supply documentation I need for disability benefits. It definitely feels like a very personal instance of “you’re a useless mouth and should be dead, or at least out of the system where nobody has to think about you”.

Not the best idea but I also read pretty extensively about how bad Australia’s health system is for disabled people. Also lived through two of my grandparents being left to die by it. Also a lot of contact trauma from being on the periphery of the welfare, disability, and poverty rights movements.

So, let’s have a chat. What helps? I usually make it through immediate mental health crises but every episode of suicidal planning ratchets my preparedness up a bit more. I think I need to be more proactive about not getting to that state in the first place.

    • sandriver@beehaw.orgOP
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      10 months ago

      Surface messaging was “I don’t believe in DSP for young people” (I’m in my 30s and haven’t even been able to finish my degree yet due to progressively reduced study load and rapid cycling) but it’s hard not to feel like the implication is “if you can’t make yourself useful, tough luck”. First two sessions he was willing to help though so who knows.