One random night, I lay on my bed in my silent bedroom, and I felt that the silence is uncomfortable. Why, I asked myself, that the silence felt sharp, like I prefer the noise of my annoyingly loud dehumidifier, or the muffled sound of traffic in my old apartment?

I realized that the silence was ringing, in a high pitched noise that we all associate with being hit near the ears. My inner voice told myself: “man, you have tinnitus.”

Thinking back, that wasn’t the first time I thought that I have tinnitus, but I was probably in denial for years, or it just got louder. The sad part is that I’m only 26, and somehow, I feared getting tinnitus ever since my childhood.

Even worse, I just ordered a pair of headphones with ANC, and when I don’t play anything through it, the ringing gets very clear.

Was depressed for a few days, thinking that it’s not fair that I got it even though I don’t expose myself to loud noises often, I listen to music at a couple levels lower than my preference, and I don’t turn up my music to drown out noises.

But nothing in life is fair, and to compared to the suffering of others, this is only a mild discomfort. So I’ll try to keep positive about it, and be grateful that I still enjoy a comparatively luxurious life.

I’ll visit a doctor soon though!

Any of you have a similar experience? I’ll be happy to read your stories!

  • queermunist she/her
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    2 days ago

    Nope. Had it as long as I can remember. Some people are just born with it.

    • DarkSirrush@lemmy.ca
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      2 days ago

      Childhood traumas can also cause it - pretty sure mine was caused by a hefty blow to the head when I was a toddler.

      • dingus@lemmy.world
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        1 day ago

        No trauma or anything like that here. Some of us have just always had it without a cause!

      • pepperonisalami@sh.itjust.worksOP
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        2 days ago

        I’ve always been super clumsy, so a pretty good chance that mine was also caused by physical trauma. Once I ran and jumped onto the bed, underestimating how far I’ll slide - then bumped my tiny little kiddie head very hard to the headboard of the bed.