[CW: (Internalized) Queerphobia]
I have not convinced myself that I should be proud of my queer identity. I’ve seen 100 reasons to be ashamed of it and 0 to be proud of it.
Pride month seems like a joke to me. It’s a month where we’re supposed to celebrate ourselves for who we are, but it only generates the opposite attitude for me.
You can be “proud” of yourself for being queer, but that’s only if you’re not too queer. I am too queer for even other queer people to think I deserve to exist, let alone experience pride in the way I exist.
Interesting, I’m the opposite. I’m bi and in a straight passing relationship, always felt like I was never queer enough. Most of my friends are queer but were never integrated into queer culture. I always felt I would feel out of place.
I’m sorry you feel ashamed of your queerness, especially among other queers. I can’t imagine that sort of isolation. Wish I could offer more than just condolences though.
This is me too, I’m bi but have only dated women (most of who were also bi) and I know I’m outwardly perceived as straight but even my straight passing relationships don’t feel straight. But I still feel guilty taking up space in queer spaces, like I’m not queer enough