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o thank you, i could subscribe from the link, let’s go

this is kinda funny bc i thought it was gonna be “i’m only into men who are into women”

i guess that’s only a problem i have, though

i feel you, i have the same reaction reading about stuff like that 😅 i’d really like to know more about this, i really feel like it’s not something i have any issues with at all, so i’m curious if it’s a lifestyle thing or if it’s coming… really interesting. especially as someone who’s doing research to maximize bottom growth, i should do some learning about the pelvic floor specifically

i tried finding it to subscribe from beehaw, but i wasn’t able to… i think we federate with lemm.ee, since i can see your comments, so i’m not really sure why i can’t find it (to subscribe). i did find it on lemm.ee itself, though

always been curious what these buttons do for trans men. do they make me uncomfortable in my body if i’ve transitioned? do they make me comfortable in my body if i haven’t? 🤔

oh right, i should have said. it’s been about 5 years!

lmfao i have so many… the worst and most unexpected by far is that i produce so much more saliva. i’ve drooled on myself more since testosterone than like… the rest of my life. it’s fucking absurd, i’ll be working really intently on something and whoopsie daisy! drool. sometimes i’ll even BE TRYING not to drool on myself and somehow it still happens 💀💀💀

the nose hair really got me too, that shit is a sensory nightmare

on a more positive note, the increase in my nail thickness. my dad used to give me shit when i was young and female presenting for not being able to do stuff with my nails that he could, since it hurt. well, it turns out that testosterone makes your nails thicker!! so no shit i couldn’t do it… i can now tho

i do also feel like i need to trim them my nails often, too, though

the terrible eye boogers… like, i used to have to rub some shit out of my eyes after i woke up, right? but nowadays it’s like, i HAVE to wash my face off after i wake up. i never had to do that before testosterone, i thought people were just weird and fastidious about cleanliness when they talked about washing their face in the morning. no, if i don’t want my eyes to be caked in shit, i HAVE to wash them after i wake up (also, see above re: drooling, when it comes to sleep 😭)

edit: OH i thought of another one. i have to talk SO MUCH SLOWER on testosterone, now that my voice is deeper!! the words just don’t happen right if i talk too fast… my voice and vocal cords can’t keep up. but this is miserable because i have ADHD and i want to get the words OUT while i REMEMBER THEM and now it takes SO LONG. i feel like i talk half as fast as i used to!!

cw: mention of genital anatomy

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whoa… this is super interesting. lowkey i’n curious if it’s a dysphoria thing. i’ve definitely noticed that, since being on testosterone, things function better down there if i regularly errr massage the vagina. but i could imagine that a lot of trans guys can’t or don’t want to because of dysphoria… and you might not see this in pre-testosterone transmasc folks since you don’t have it causing the PCOS effects… maybe it’s sort of the equivent of how trans girls gotta use or lose their dick

i had a friend who has been super worried about me suffering some kind of horrible infection due to atrophy (she had another transmasc friend who went through that). i was also worried about it for a while, until i discovered the aforementioned relationship re: massage above

i also wonder if this also applies to transmascs on testosterone who have had vaginectomies… godddddd i should go back to school so i can do research…

hello. i am fracture falcon. i am a transgender man who is about 30 years old and currently lives on the east coast of the US. i’ve known i’m trans for just over five years and i’ve changed my name, i’m on hormones, and i’ve had top surgery.

being trans affects both a lot and a little about my life, but i would say it doesn’t weigh on me a ton from day to day, and i recognize there’s privilege in that. i also had a strong feminist background (for better or worse), so i knew to do a lot of positive reinforcement work on myself (e.g. deconstruct what a man is, emphasize that men are not their bodily characteristics, tell myself that even if my experience is non-traditional for a man, it’s still valid and contributes to the sum of experiences of masculinity, etc etc etc)

it’s hard for me to say what gives me gender euphoria nowadays. i have done a lot of research on bottom growth and maximizing it, because i want to grow a big ole dick, i think we have the technology and it should be possible. but it’s more of a hobby i enjoy a lot (biology nerd) than gender euphoria. like… as i sit here thinking about it, i’m just like, yeah i need to sit down and compile all my notes about it. i pass visibly and my voice also passes and life is pretty much… normal about it (which again, i realize is a privilege)

i like lifting weights and getting bigger. it’s cool and satisfying, but i also get worried about scaring people as i get bigger. i don’t wanna do that. so it’s a bit of a mixed bag. it is satisfying when i hit strength thresholds to do new things though, and it feels a bit like gender euphoria. i did used to get it, but it’s been a while now and most of the stuff i got it from was short lived. being a man is complicated, i suppose

i’m not really looking for anything in particular in this community. to have a place to share my knowledge and listen to other transmasc people’s experiences, really. i just like reading and interacting in these communities

as an aside, i appreciate you, cowboycrustation, for the work you put in to try to keep this place active. it’s pretty small so it can probably be a bit disheartening, but i see it and appreciate it, for as long as you feel it’s worthwhile

it is proprietary, but it’s worth noting that bsky is also federated, so it is less centralized than e.g. xitter. it uses a different protocol than mastodon and i don’t know many details about it, so unfortunately this is about the extent that i can speak on it

edit: it looks like you can get more details from others in this thread

i appreciate this, this was nice to see on a rough day

i feel like i used to see these sorts of things a lot more when i thought i was a woman. i miss that feeling… of being appreciated, of being supported

ahh… back to the grind

oh will it actually hurt them? i thought you’d just get a slippery mouse

as i understand it, being told to behave more like a man is a common experience of being a boy, so seems like you’re doing it right to me

slightly depressing jokes aside, your identity isn’t determined by how you dress yourself, it’s determined by what you say and believe you are

that said, not everyone is able to discern the distinction. that doesn’t mean they’ll never understand… but it might require your own rock solid belief in what you are, and explaining the difference, for some people to understand it

it’s a harder path, especially if you want people to understand you and see you how you are… it’s easier to be gender conforming for a reason, you know? but you can take that information into account and act according to your preferences, balancing between your expression and your desire to conform. there’s no wrong answer

for what it’s worth, it’s a reasonably common sentiment that i’ve heard amongst transmascs, to enjoy feminine expression a lot more post transition. usually reluctantly expressed due to a desire to pass

for myself, i was content to dress quite femininely for a long time. recently, i’ve started working out and putting on muscle, which i’ve enjoyed a lot… but it does make dressing in a pretty way very challenging. i got too big for over half of my wardrobe… sigh. i’ll get back to it, one day

as a last note, phallo doesn’t require HRT as a prerequisite, the way meta does. unless, of course, your doctor specifically requires it, which is fairly commonplace but unfortunate. i imagine that’s the case for you, but i figured i’d include this note on the slim chance it wasn’t

hope this all helps you on your journey

would it be that it were so simple, but for that “feelings garbage” to be the cause of ADHD to begin with…

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this article feels… really gross. like wow, ADHD people thrive under stress! i wonder how they ended up like that

it also doesn’t seem to have any regard for the wellbeing of the people in the study, just their productivity, although it could just be being presented poorly by the article

just shitty overall

if it’s not worth preserving

IT’S NOT WORTH PURCHASING

rarely, i like to play a fluffy, feel good game with no real stakes. enter: Flynn, Son of Crimson

there is absolutely no chance of anything really bad happening in the game, the worst that happens is your powerful guardian diety dog loses his powers at the beginning of the game (but it’s OK, he just rests until you reclaim his powers and he feels better). you never really feel like anyone is really in danger, you get to play a pretty fun 2d action platforming game, and it has some really fun sections later on that make you feel awesome

it wraps up nicely in probably 20 hours too, if you want to 100% it, so it doesn’t overstay its welcome and lets you experience all of its content with low demands. really a lovely little experience. it’s not pushing the envelope at all, but if you want basically 20 solid hours of lighthearted fun, this is a great way to get it

gonna throw in my caveat here; ITT is a really good co-op game but there’s like a 25% chance the story isn’t for you. it’s the kind of story where, if you think about it too much, you start to realize that the characters do some pretty fucked up stuff including

::: graphically tearing a plush doll apart while it screams for mercy

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i don’t want to come across as judgemental if you enjoyed it; i get that some people are gonna find it more slapstick than anything. but it was more than enough to make me and the person i played it with flush it, and i wouldn’t feel right not mentioning it for specifically “uplifting games”

if you can ignore the story, the co-op gameplay is super solid, though

(sorry if the spoilers don’t show up right, my client doesn’t show them properly)

to clarify, i’m talking about the hypothetical situation where OP’s wife, who has chronic fatigue, also has a baby. i’m sure there are people out there with chronic fatigue who have had babies, of course, and they are champs, but uh, i believe that would be a future situation for OP :)