「僕なんかいなくても」

大切な花を踏みにじられた 報復が怖いから　目を逸らす いくじなしの僕は蟻の巣の中 じっと不幸が過ぎ去るのを待つ だんだんだんだん　心が濁る だんだんだんだん　心が濁る 僕には　この世界を変えられないような気がしている

みんな　あの子の陰口を言うけど こっそり　本の貸し借りをしてる 銃口向けられ　踏み絵を踏まされ 歯を食いしばり「ウザいね」と笑う だんだんだんだん　心が腐る だんだんだんだん　心が腐る 僕には　この世界を変えられないような気がしている

零度の雨　期待の火が消える こんな奴じゃ　何も叶わないよ こんな奴じゃ　君に愛されないよ

うるせえ　弱虫でも生きていくんだよ 透明な僕にも　何か出来るだろ 世界は憎らしく　我関せず回る 僕なんかいなくても 止まない争いに　シューティングスターを 優しい人に一縷の幸せを 無慈悲な悲喜劇は続く 僕なんかいなくても　それでも やらなくちゃ　それでも やらなくちゃ　それでも

青春捧げて手にしたメダルを あの人に2、3秒で奪われ 星の数ほどいる主役の群れに 押し潰されて　やがて貝になる だんだんだんだん　心が終わる だんだんだんだん　心が終わる 僕なんか　いてもいなくても同じような気がしている

「夢」も「詐欺」も　同じ顔してる 信じる者は　みんな救われるの 信じきれない僕は救われないの？

知らねえよ　まだ心臓は動いてんだよ 敗戦続きの出来レース　何年目だろう 息絶えたその後も　陽は昇る 僕なんかいなくても　それでも やらなくちゃ　それでも 自分に嫌われても

だんだんだんだん　命が光る だんだんだんだん　命が光る 泥にまみれても　思い過ごしでも キラキラキラキラキラキラ光る 「悪い夢は終わる」　綺麗事にすがる すべて無意味だとしても

うるせえ　弱虫でも生きていくんだよ 透明な僕にも何か出来るだろ 世界は憎らしく　我関せず回る 僕なんかいなくても 止まない争いに　シューティングスターを 優しい人には　どうか　めいっぱいの幸せを 叶わないと分かっていても この世界が終わっていても 僕なんかいなくても　それでも やらなくちゃ　それでも やらなくちゃ　それでも 僕なんかいなくても　それでも

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With or Without Me

They trampled on my precious flower Afraid of retaliation, I turn my eyes away My timid self, hiding in an ant’s nest Quietly waits for the misfortune to pass Gradually and gradually, my heart becomes dull Gradually and gradually, my heart becomes dull It feels like there’s nothing I can do to change this world

Everyone talks about her behind her back But secretly we lend and borrow books They point a gun at my head and test my allegiance I grit my teeth and laugh, “She’s so annoying” Gradually and gradually, my heart rots Gradually and gradually, my heart rots It feels like there’s nothing I can do to change this world

Zero-degree rain, a fire of expectation extinguished If I’m like this, nothing will ever come true If I’m like this, I’ll never be loved by you

Shut up, I’m gonna live even if I’m a wimp I’m invisible, but there’s something I can do, right? The world spins hatefully and indifferently Even with or without me I wish for a shooting star to the endless fighting I wish for a ray of happiness to those who are kind This merciless tragicomedy continues Even with or without me - still I have to do something, still I have to do something, still

The medal I dedicated my youth to win Was taken away from me in two or three seconds Crushed by the crowd of countless heroes I eventually turn into a shellfish Gradually and gradually, my heart dies Gradually and gradually, my heart dies It feels like it doesn’t matter whether I’m here or not

“Dreams” and “frauds” have the same face Those who believe will all be saved I, who can’t believe, will not be saved?

Who cares, my heart’s still beating How many years have I continued losing this fixed game? After I’ve died, the sun will yet rise Even with or without me - still I have to do something, still Even if I’m hated by myself

Gradually and gradually, life begins to shine Gradually and gradually, life begins to shine Even if I’m covered with mud, even if it’s all in my head Twinkling and twinkling, life begins to shine “This nightmare will end”, I cling to a fantasy Even if it’s all meaningless

Shut up, I’m gonna live even if I’m a wimp I’m invisible, but there’s something I can do, right? The world spins hatefully and indifferently Even with or without me I wish for a shooting star to the endless fighting I wish, please, for all the happiness to those who are kind Even if I know it won’t come true Even if the world has already ended Even with or without me - still I have to do something, still I have to do something, still Even with or without me - still